Ramblings 'n such

Waste of a day
Woo

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: Arcade Fire

This is the first time I've been happy/content (whatever you wanna call it) in 75 days.

The people I thought would make it through didnt....and the people I thought would leave didnt.
Im pleasantly surprised...

Screw logic

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: "You are a gardenia"

I miss her

So much

Current Mood: lethargic

It's called getting over it. Move on.
Move. The. Fuck. On.
You wonder why you're all so depressed? It's because you cant let things go.
Get off the pills, quite crying, GROW UP
Im more mature then you all. And Im more then 30 fucking decades younger.
Isnt there something wrong with that?
I've been told I grew up too fast. Maybe because I HAD to. Because I HAD to be the mature one. Because I HAD to learn how to take care of myself.
Face facts. Open your eyes. GET OVER IT.
I cant deal with the whining.


Grow up.
For the love of GOD.
Grow up

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Ape Dos Mil-Glassjaw

Im finding it harder and harder to care

Current Mood: blank
Current Music: I Wanna Be A Kennedy-Kill Hannah

Im so tired

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Fidelity-Regina Spektor

I dont know if I can do this much longer

It hurts really bad

I havent posted in awhile....a few updates are in order I suppose....
 

• Lizzy asked me out, then told me she loved me, I didnt respond, she got pissed that Im so busy with school work, we're not talking so I assume we're not together anymore. Im not too upset about it (Yes, I know that sounds awful...)
• Nick & Chris are outta the band...YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES
• The Tenants are coming along really well. I love those guys :]
• My birthday was sunday. It was pretty awful.
• Someone graffitied my school. Everyone's SO upset. I feel awful about it...
• Im sick, my throat hurts like hell.
• The Gaslight Anthem are coming in November! Hannah & I are bringing them cupcakes XD

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Naked As We Came-Iron & Wine

I miss Lizzy.
So much.
I dont want her to die. 
I really, really, really dont.
I wrote a song about her.
It was to get out my anger though.
So, now I feel bad.
Because I love her.
I love her so much.
I want her to be happy.
Please, be happy, Lizzy.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Strangers-The Kinks

Life is good.

You know...besides a few setbacks here and there....

Current Mood: good
Current Music: Nu Rock-Morningwood

Saturday was really fun. I didnt sleep friday night but it was fine. Dad woke me up at 4:00 in the morning and we went out, got breakfast then drove to his friend's house and we all three of us went fishing. Lester (his friend) is a really great guy. Really funny and nice, same with his wife. Lester caught two or three bass and my dad caught a few perch. I CAUGHT 12 PERCH AND SUNFISH!! We were on the boat and Lester let me drive it back :]

Ward Parkway is awful now. Seriously. 

The Darjeeling Limited it one of the greatest movies EVER. And tomorrow is FUNNY GAMES!!!!

Today kinda sucked....Im in a really bad mood and everyone is being bitchy...

Oh well, it's cool :]

And I've seem to developed an odd interest in JWalk. I like his style...

La la la la la la la la la la la la

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: This Is Halloween-PATD

 Yesterday was band practice. We got quite a bit done. Worked on 3 songs, 1 original, 2 covers. AND we changed our name to....THE TENANTS! I like it...

Spent the night at Hannah's too....that's always really fun. Stayed up super late though because a chair slid across her diningroom which is (no shit) haunted! It was FREAKY as hell.

Then today we woke up and watched a show on TV about paranormal hauntings so yeah...I just a bit paranoid....*shudder*....I hate ghosts....

Current Mood: scared
Current Music: Paper Planes-M.I.A

Frances called me tonight at like 10:30. Asked me to go swing at Suicide. So of course I went up. It was so much fun! We stole this GIANT ball filled with water from someone's porch and rolled it around Suicide and just ran around until these 3 cars of chicks stopped and were staring at us. So, after that we went up to 7-11 and bought cookies & candy and ended up sitting in her convertible across the street from my house and eating and listening to John Legend and talking about when were were younger. I think she's scared of going to college...especially the whole "growing up" part. You can tell she's a bit desperate to stay a child, you know? But Im hoping she'll go to school and have a great time and not fuck up or anything. She's a great girl so she deserves it.

It was a really fun night.
It was so good seeing her :]

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: These Arms of Mine-Otis Redding

How can she crush me so bad with such off hand comments?
"Dont be an idiot about it."
I dont fucking get it!
Does she hate me that much?

Current Mood: melancholy
Current Music: Gasoline Family-RA!GC

 There are sunflowers growing out of my earlobes.

No shit

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Walk On The Wild Side-Lou Reed

Last night April, Liam, Lissa & Blake showed up at our house completely wasted. It was fun. I had to chase April & Lissa upstairs though b/c April wanted to know what I had painted, haha. Lissa kept telling me Blake's sister hated her...I felt bad b/c Lissa seems like a sweet girl...

Grammy fell four times today :[

I FINALLY FINISHED A HAPPY SONG! And it's not too bad....it's basically about a very flamboyant/eccentric skinny boy who's in love with a sullen grunger girl. Im quite fond of it :]

Liam & April had dinner with us tonight. It was nice, they showed us pictures of their new loft!

Hannah FINALLY blew up on Nick....I dont think he's taking it well...

xoxo

Current Mood: good
Current Music: Northern Downpour-PATD

Today started out really, really good!

Now it fucking sucks. I really wish I had a completely different personality. "If I was you I would fucking hate me too"
I really want Chris out of that band. And I've been hinting at it but I think Hannah wants him to stay because I fucking suck too bad. 


Fuck, I hate this.

So much

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: That Green Gentleman-PATD

 Phoebe died. 
No one is taking it well.


I hate bitchy comments. I dont know whether to rock the boat or just let it float....

Im terrified about tomorrow. Oig, oig, oig, oig

Upside: Macros make me giggle

Current Mood: moody
Current Music: Some random Salsa song

Ugh,  Im bipolar today.


I fail at life

Current Mood: confused

Not too bad of a day. It's the stupid little things that made it good though :]
-Hannah & I are talking like normal
-April & Liam stopped by and liked my hair. Things seem to be going good for them!
-Wall*E on thursday! (hopefully)
-Basically know Brain Stew on bass so that Ian guy wont think Im completely awful....
-Garrett left a sweet comment on one of my FB pics
-Conan in on TV instead of Jay Leno! Ah-woot! 

Im a complete loser XD

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Brain Stew-Green Day